strength

just finished a marathon of bleach. hahah from episode 24 to 55. 20 minutes per episode 31 epsiodes. thats a total of...erm.. 620mins of watching hahah about 11 hours give sometime to getting basic nessecities. what i love about the show is the same why i watch naruto before the fillers started coming in. the exploration of what strength is. the journey of how 1 becomes strong with stubborn resolution. the question of what are you fighting for has always intrigued me. reminds me of what someone said to me b4 abt courage. *smiles* watching the shows always reenforces what is it im doing why im doing it who is in it with me. reminds me of what exactly i am capable of. what humans are capable of. modern day fights are alot different from all the swinging of swords but the essense of the fight is the same. all of us still fight in our own way for whatever purpose. let us keep fighting, living and not give up. to all my comrades i love you. seeing you guys reminds me of what i keep fighting for.

Moving

of recent its getting clearer to me what is it that im attached to. once again letting go so to speak isnt easy but its something i continuously have to learn and relearn i wonder why. i wanna wish it gets easier but knowing the stronger im attached to something the harder it becomes its clear thats just wishful thinking. its getting me down but i gotta stop it. it hurts yes but i cannot allow it to paralyse me. lets keep moving. perhaps its a test of my resolve. ive nvr really tested it and ive always been easily swayed lets see how this goes.

Hmm

Damn all that surrounds me are things! Haha ^^

Quidam

watched quidam yesterday night. it was magnificent! such a moving performance. a rollercoaster ride with all the highs and lows. the skill they exhibited in the performance was astounding! makes ya wanna run away with the circus! :D

searching and finding

recently took some time out from almost everything to find out something. away from camp from eci from my family to find out what is it i wanna do in my life. at that point of time i was feelin gso cluttered i didnt know what to think or feel. not sure what i wanna do or where to go. so there i was on a thursday night i think all by myself at a place where i rarely visit. pasir ris macdonalds with my chicken mcnuggets meal and a book to write out my thoughts. being away from the regular infuences of my life to find somwhere to go something that i want that has no ties to the regularities of my life not as a means of escaping but as a choice made on my own weighing whats around me whats available to me. clarity was what i was looking for and i found found more that wat i intended for. i found a dream that is no longer 1 and in the works. i found a man named john galt. now Who is John Galt? hahahha its so ironic that it took me so long to get it. *chuckles*

Aging

yay. another long awaited post just because i havent written anything in the a long while yet again. com crashed using sis com. spent 200 bucks fixing it. just waiting to collect it. anyway was running an errand for my bro and went to buy ciggies along the way. i went to this provision shop which i went to quite a number of times. however te lady there that served me numerous times ask me for my ic..... i told her im 23.... she just said you look young. kinda got me thinking abt aging and what it means to look old. how come previous times she didnt ask for my ic and today she did? did i look younger today then i did previous times i came? if so what is the dfference? perhaps should go back and ask her. haha. probably thinking too much again. oh well better than not thinking at all.